A way of life

I think I'm one of those creatures who is absolutely obsessed with the concept of life and how it works. How things always happen for a reason and how everything is circular, in motion (earth rotates and revolves); in philosophies (what goes around comes around); in nature (water cycle); in religion (cycle of birth, rebirth and death) and in various systems and subsystems. As a teenager my sis couldn't help notice how I loved circular things (concentric circular earrings, spiral prints on my tshirts, kurtas and everything i owned, bangles etc) and thought i was a circle freak! its weird but when im about to sleep i feel the insides of my head moving in circles and when I close my eyes for a long time i see polka dots! I'm sure lots of people do but not many people ponder on it as much as I am right now. Unless of course you are Japanese artist Yayoi Kusama, whose paintings i happen to see in Museum of Modern Art, New York (http://www.moma.org/collection/artist.php?artist_id=3315) Paintings are fantastic and minimalistic and i connected with them immediately, which is why i remembered them even now. But what scares me is that she has a history of mental illness and hallucinations! Does that really make me freak?! i hope not!
Coming back to circles, i don't care much about the human made traditions but a ring is circular, isn't it? A zero is circular (which im very proud to say was invented by Indian scholars) So many times we get caught up in viscous circles, its just feels like a whole way of life.

Anyway, going on about life and its systems (and subsystems) I love finding metaphors in stupid little routine and non routine things and link it with the cosmos of life. It can get really silly at times like i was playing Touch hockey on my phone the other day (its a free app btw) and every time i would hit the disk with too much force it would bounce back and slide into my goal and every time i stayed calm and protected the entry of my goal i would score. you know what I'm getting at. It can get really annoying, but very interesting at times. Its like the concepts are the same but applied differently in different systems. For instance in trees, there is the big bossy Banyan tree who definitely provides shelter and preserves tradition but also doesn't allow other plants to grow under it as it blocks the sunlight, on the other hand there is the Neem tree, every part of it is medicinal in many ways and others like the Cherry tree, that grow lovely white flowers and look only beautiful. So you can see what I'm trying to get at. I guess everybody has a different way of analysing their lives. Some people tolerate it, some take it as it comes, some absolutely love it, some really look forward to it and some who think too much analyse it like i do!
At the moment I'm talking about life so generously, is because i absolutely love it and I am actually quite pleased of the fact that my happiness has come from within and not derived from a person, a new commodity or status or something.
Alright I'm quite bored of typing and staring at the screen now so I'm going to end this quite abruptly. What was this entry about? no idea! i just love talking about life in case you haven't noticed already!