Life has funny ways to remind you how things you own might not exist tomorrow! For instance you had seen your important piece of paper around at some corner of your flat, saying to yourself yeah yeah i know the paper is here and i will pick it up from there when i need it. The time comes, you do realise you need, you go back to that same spot and WHAM its gone! How can it disappear? why did the damn paper do this to me! it was meant to be there, i saw it once, twice or maybe thrice hanging around at the same spot! ugghh but true and the quest remains unanswered.
Well this maybe the case of a billion other things that we own or that exist around us and we never bother to pay attention to them, wallet , keys, files blah blah blah. In my case the goods seem to be quite intangible like my brain (bonkers!) my sense of smell, vision, and other rather embarrassing things that i don't wish to disclose. Recently due to my health setbacks, I’ve actually been hallucinating! not kidding and it does feel scary. It feels like the brain has the power to control all the major involuntary processes of your body and of course we have no idea what its up to, until a third person, possibly a doctor is required to tell you what the hell is going on inside your damn body. So basically what you're thinking is not what your mind is thinking, so don’t even think about taking even your mind for granted, coz you have it today you never know what it decides for tomorrow.
I remember when i was in class 7, things would suddenly go so blurry for my eyes and i was so stupid i would just wonder why? Suddenly I started failing algebra tests coz i would copy the questions wrongly and was forced to do an eye test. We discovered my myopic eyesight started at -2.5 where usually people start at -0.25 or -0.5. Why do we just assume that nothing can go wrong with us and that its always the "other people" getting injured or sick. I mean this isn’t that drastic and class 7 was a long time ago, but really.
These days my compatibility with electronic items has been really annoying me. I usually wouldn’t be bothered and I know these are only material things but in this electronic age you really cant live with out them, even though I would love to..! So, the hinges of my laptop are broken, and to use it I have to literally hold the screen with one hand and type with the other. My phone, is ripping apart slowly and I usually can’t hear the caller too well unless I give it a shake! It also likes to switch on and off when it wishes. My ipod, also seems to have a mind of its own and plays the songs that it wants me to hear rather than me being able to select what I’d like to hear. If it thinks it has had enough, it would switch off and wait for me to plug it on to my laptop. Tantrums I tell you! Even a damn wire doesn’t seem to be congenial with me as its chipping of and I can see the copper beneath! Oh there are so many more stories, but I shall spare you with those. It isn’t as bad as it looks, I am usually gracious with electronics but sometimes things just go beyond my control and they fall, or get sprinkled with water or get sat upon!
Anyway I know I have these goods today, but I do realise its not far when they live their life and will be gone tomorrow.
Everything, I mean everything, did I mention everything? in this world can be gone tomorrow. Even the world can be gone tomorrow and it feels more possible after watching so many American disaster films. They’ve covered everything from aliens to ice age to volcano irruptions! So I guess this is it., your heart, your mind, your health to tangible goods, all need to be acknowledged and taken care off before they’re gone. Trust me I still wont learn!
